The Wind of My Life

Aug. 27, 2018

9:30 PM

...

- So, I thought it would be a good thing if he came to talk with you two tomorrow.

- Wow, Ellyn ~~ Bringing your boyfriend to meet your parents. We are proud of you ~~

- Jack! I already said ... It was just a necessary kiss for the contract . I-It's not like a kiss is going to change everything between me and him.

- (Jack making a suggestive gesture with his hand ) You never know. That was his first kiss and now he must be thinking about ...

- No . He's not like that.

- Are you sure? Boys his age have hormones on the skin, especially when a girl /old woman does something like that.

- Hey! I already said. My existential age doesn't count. I am forever young.

- (Jack being ironic) Apologizing for that when you used the opposite argument in Elementia .

- Shut up, Jack! Anyway ... You will accept this?

- You know it doesn't depend on me. It depends on her there.

- Hey, Raphaela ... Raphaela?

* I look at the cell phone in my hand

- Yes?

- Did you pay attention to what I said?

- Yes. He can come tomorrow afternoon. No problem.

- No problem? Are you sure?

- Tomorrow I will not have class, so there is no problem. I just hope he is more behaved than you, hag.

- Hey! Stop it!

- Haha haha ~~ Are you nervous now, Ellyn? Where's the serious girl who ...

- If you say anything else, I'll strip your fur and make a leather jacket, Jack!

- I stopped!

09:45 PM

* under a shower

"Jack! I already said ... It was just a necessary kiss for the contract. I-It's not like a kiss would change everything between me and him "

If it was something so simple, I would have no reason to stay nervous. And even if it were just simple ... It would change a lot even if it meant something less flashy.

* noise of the bathroom door opening

- Jack, if it's you, I'll ...

- It's me. The Ellyn.

- Ah ... I'm sorry, Ellyn. I don't...

- I know how it is. Jack doesn't really respect other's privacy, so I know how it goes. - You won't tell me that he saw you change clothes.

- So ... What is it?

- I wanted to talk to you.

- Here?

- Well, Jack's ears will hear if I talked to you in any room in the house. Here, he doesn't listen well because of the noise. And he's out of the house so there's going to be more stuff distracting his ears.

- It is very important then, right?

- No. It's something ... personal. - Huh ?

- Oh ... I know it may seem strange, but don't you want to come in? You rub my back and we've already talked.

- Don't you think it's kind of weird to talk so casually ?

- My house, my rules.

- Eh... F-Fine.

After a few seconds, Ellyn enters the bathroom stall with a towel covering her body and a bench that I use from time to time. She places the bench next to me and I sit. I give the soap to Ellyn and she starts rubbing my back slowly.

- So ... What is it?

- Well ... About Sebastian ...

- The kid from the contract?

- Yes, that's him.

- What's it?

- It's just ... Do you think I should have done this?

Here we go again ...

- Ellyn, it's gone. You don't have to think about it. Besides, it was your decision to want to contract with him.

- I know, but ... I expected him to act more ... "normal". But he just acted the same way he always does. Too calm ...

- Ellyn, didn't you spend 2 days with him and fell in love with him? Because if this is it, I will ...

- No. It is not that. Nor am I one of those to fall in love at first sight. - Hmm ...

- So why are you thoughtful about it? If he agreed to help you and was able to meet that request that seemed to be something pretty intense for normal people, it is not something that should make you nervous or worried, especially with you being a Gacha.

- Well, it's just ...

Before speaking, Ellyn stopped rubbing my back.

- You know, in my world, there was no one who thought the same way he did. Jack should have told about me to you, right?

- Yes, he did.

- It took a while for me to get used to my friends form my team, but I just got used to it when I realized that they were peculiar too much for anyone to understand. And I made me be the person who best understands them. And they did the same for me. But Sebastian ... He thought that all this time, he was helping me and acting his way because I thought he was excited or impressed, but he always keeps the same calm way, even after the kiss and the contract ... and I think ...

- Think what?

- You know, in my world, people saw me as a heroine that nobody stay at my reach, but I wanted them to be close to me. My name was what mattered most, not what I wanted people to see from me. That was what made me sad because nobody tried to understand me or know how I thought. But ... I think Sebastian is someone who pays attention to what I think . And I'm afraid he'll think differently now that he knows about me ...

* turning to face Ellyn

- Rapha ...?

* flick on Ellyn's forehead

- Oucj! Why do you like to do this to me? That hurts for a s***!

- Why do you tend to be a wind head , Ellyn.

- Huh ?

- Look, even I didn't accept Jack in a calm way. It scared me, I almost banished it from my house and I'm considering making a scalp in him to leave his fur away from my clothes.

- That seems more frightening than friendly .

- But ... In a way, and I got along with him because we had something in common. And we have that as our understanding. Of course, it is not because we are "friends" in his view that we need to understand each other completely and ignore our individual problems. But it is this something in common that makes us understand each other.

I only see Ellyn paying attention, saying nothing. And I just smile ...

- If "Sebastian" is helping you and running it that way , isn't it because you and he have more in common than you think?

*silence

- I don't know.

- If you don't know, it's okay to ask him. Besides, you decided to tell about yourself to him, he listened and didn't change his mind. Why don't you ask him to do the same?

- Do you think it will work?

- Well, I'm just saying what I think ... You don't have to do what I said.

- But then you break me, right?

- For a woman almost 50 years old, you look like a little girl from primary school.

- Don't fill it! - Now he became a revolted teenager of 15 years.

After a few seconds, Ellyn decided to take a shower and I stayed to rub her back as my way of rewarding her for getting the flu after she left. But ... For some reason, I was also thoughtful about what she asked ...

Besides, it's not just her who doesn't want to think that things can get different because of a kiss ...

...

10:20 PM

When I and Ellyn left the bathroom, we went to my room and we drees our cloths. As she was already a little sleepy, she ended up lying on a mat that I keep when I'm going to invent sleeping at a friend's house. I went to the living room and sat on the couch that I have ...

"And I'm afraid he'll think differently now that he knows about me ..."

*Sigh

- Why did you do that, David?

- Thinking of him, Raphaela?

I look at the small balcony of my apartment and see Jack, leaning on the edge of the balcony, looking at me with a look of concern. I just turn my eyes away ignorantly.

- You know, I don't think that ignoring me will keep me away from asking something.

- Jack ... I don't feel good to talk about it.

- Hmph, I know ...

The biggest problem of living with a half human and wolf boy is that his instincts are much more refined and of course ...

- Look, you know it won't do much good to pretend you don't have something disturbing you because I already realized that you are not in your normal way. So ... did something happen? - He'll notice I'm different.

- You know it's none of your business, right?

- I know, but it is a little unusual not receive orders or taking any thing thrown at me.

- Are you enjoying being beaten?

- No. Eh ... What I meant is that ... It is strange and worrying that certain things change from one hour to the next.

- As well?

- You're more flustered than usual , you don't stop looking at your cell phone and you don't seem interested in my conversations making fun of Ellyn because of this Sebastian. You know, when routines change, it's easy to see that there's something weird.

- Was it routine to make fun of this little girl?

- Raphaela.

*silence

- Aren't you stop for asking, right?

- For sure. And I can do it until you sleep or all night if you want.

As much as I am hesitant to say the reason to Jack, there are times that there is no escaping his nose for these things.

...

- Yes, it's about David.

- Who knew I would see you suffering for a man , Raphaela ~~

- Shut up, Jack .

- But seriously ... If you like him a lot, why don't you forgive him?

- It sounds simple to you, doesn't it?

- Raphaela, I can't say more than I think. And I think in a simple way .

- And you think I should forgive him for what he did?

- Yes. But that's all. I am not saying to forget this as if it were trivial.

*silence

- Are you going to look at nothing and not admit that I'm giving you a good advice?

- No ... I will pretend that you are a normal human being who said something logical this time.

- This is offensive to me, you know that, right?

- (laughing sarcastically) Yes, I know.

Jack starts to head towards the kitchen, picks up a glass of water and brings it to me. I only accept it and he stands but leaning on the couch.

- Raphaela, you don't have to keep quiet or pretend it's okay with you just because someone is close to you. It seems a lot that you don't trust people when you do that.

- That's not it. If it were, I wouldn't have let Ellyn stay here.

- So it's one of those "complex" chats with "You don't understand me" that I see in those half-assed teenage films with 2 guys?

- I'll get your access out of my account.

- Don't. Please.

...

- Ahem ... Raphaela, what I mean is that ... You can talk to me or Ellyn when you are not well with something personal. You already hear her delusions. Let us listen to yours and try to help in the best way we can.

*silence

- That part of delirium was unnecessary .

- I know. But if you're going to prolong it, it's only a matter of time before become one.

- Hmph ... You are a pain in the ass.

- I know ~~

As much as I know that Jack is saying this with good intentions, I think this problem of mine is something I need to solve. If I am not able to handle such a simple thing, it does not give me the sense that I am able to take care of myself. But ... I think it's okay to speak from time to time ...

...

- "So, is it true?"

- " Look ... I needed to talk about this ..."

- "(Almost crying) David, you are not serious, right?

- "And I can explain myself , Raphaela."

- "Why did it?! I'm not..."

*running away

- "Raphaela, wait!"

- "Leave me in peace! Don't talk with me anymore!!!!"

...

* opening my eyes

- Hey, Raphae ...

- AHHHH!

* kicking Jack's intimate area

- OUCH!

- (Ellyn waking up scared) AHH! WHAT WAS THAT?!

- (Jack trying to talk on the floor) N-Nothing ...

After that scare Jack on top of me, Ellyn if stand up him and Ellyn get Jack to the couch while he only made a groan of pain. I decided to leave my room to see if he is alright.

- D-Don't do it again , you crazy wolf!

- S-Sorry , R-Raphaella ...

- (Ellyn with her hand over her face) You two ...

...

7:30 AM

After a few minutes, I showered, dressed in an outfit to go out, and sat on the computer chair. As they sent me a message yesterday that the professor of today's discipline would not go because he traveled without telling anyone, I will end up having all day free. Well, more or less, since I'm going to need to do something today.

As Jack is incapacitated, Ellyn went to the kitchen and, listening to Jack's directions, she prepared coffee for us.

- So, what time do you want to bring him?

- He leaves class at 3:30 pm.

- Fine.

I still can't believe Sebastian is a high school teenager. Like, the way Ellyn talked, I thought he was an older guy .

- Jack, how long will you stay? - I think a long time. Pardon.

- I don't know. My future children are still surviving the earthquake. - Disgusting.

- Don't say it that way, Jack. That's disgusting. - Thank you, Ellyn.

- Whatever.

...

- Ahem ...

I get Ellyn and Jack's attention , who just raise their ears to hear me.

- The following is. Just clean up the house until then. When the time comes, I will order an Uber for you, Ellyn. And Jack, try to keep everything clean until he arrives.

- And you, Raphaela?

- I'll be out of here soon, but I'll be back before you go, Ellyn.

- Okay, Raphaela.

Before I turned around, I just saw Jack lifting his face and giving me a suspicious look, but I ignored it. He must have understood where I'm going by now .

...

09:00 AM

* looking at the busy street

After waiting a few minutes, I just leave the house and go to a cafeteria next to university. I see some familiar faces of some college students , people who are going to work walking down the street , including some people who are entering at the cafeteria.

I haven't been out like that in a while. Since I started on the university, I decided to put my time and dedication to it, but after a while, it didn't even matter because even the teachers weren't as strict as I imagined. The advantage is that I have considerable free time, but the worst part of it is that there is not much I can do in the city. Much because of some people who know that I am the daughter of a wealthy family. Therefore, I can only keep my life out of the ordinary of my parents' standards if I go to less busy places. This cafeteria is a very practical example .

- You arrived early, Raphaela.

I turn and see a guy wearing an outfit casual, but holding a similar work folder to an executive. And it was just who I was waiting for.

- You know how I am, Gillian. The sooner, the more discreet it will be.

- I would very much disagree with that.

Gillian is a friend of a friend of mine who besides studying at the university, he also works at the university's administration. Even though he is very young, he is very responsible and fulfills his obligations. But sometimes, he does questionable things like ...

- First, the money.

- There you go.

I take my wallet out of my pocket and hand him over 200 dolars. Yes, he is someone who does favors in exchange for money.

- Okay. Right here it is.

Gillian opens one of the folders and shows some documents.

- Reports made since 2017 with reports of the peculiar situations you asked for.

When Ellyn told me how Sebastian created suspicions about two students at his school who may be magic users when looking for reports, I decided to do the same, but as I had no acquaintances in these more administrative parts of the university, a friend referred me to Gillian, but the young man has already learned how to do dirty business and would only do that if I paid him. What a strange way to ask for something.

- Thank you, Gillian.

- You know how it is. Anything, just talk to me directly. Mary doesn't have the custom to ask for things without drawing too much attention. - Sorry for her behavior.

- I see.

I look at some reports very superficially, while Gillian places an order for a waitress at the cafeteria.

- I thought I wouldn't have any of that .

- Neither did I. But the new university rector seems to have a craze for documentation, even if it is dispensable. - May the new rector be praised.

- Did you count how many?

- In total, 25 reports. But with your specification, I brought 6 reports.

- At least, it helps.

- I know it's not in my interest, but why would you need it?

- Well, one of the teachers asked some students to create scripts to help the performances of other students in the Performing Arts course, and as he asked for them to be themed, I thought about it.

- Did you think of using delusions and ghost stories from college students for that? It can ruin the life of one or two students, at the very least.

- I'll change some things. And there will be no mention of the students in these reports, so it won't screw anyone's life.

- Huh...

* waitress placing a cup of coffee on the table

- Fine thanks. I have to go.

- But already?

- I'm busy with jobs, if you didn't notice.

- I thought you'd like to know about David.

...

- Why did I want to know anything about him?

- Mary told me about what happened. And to be honest, I care about him in the same way that you care.

As discreet as it may be, it seems that everyone at the university likes to know about others' lives.

- ( Sigh ) Did something happen to him?

- More or less.

- As well?

- My friends saw him walking with one staff of the Gallstone's fraternity. Whatever it is, if he starts to look more like them ... David will become an asshole of the worst kind.

*silence

- If he is deciding to go that route, it is his choice.

- Seriously, what are you going to say?

- Yes. As I said, what he does or doesn't do is his problem. If he wants to be one of those assholes, so be it.

Gillian said nothing and just took her cup of coffee.

- Is that it?

- As far as I know, it is.

- Great. I'm on my way.

I get up from the table and pick up the folder with the reports. Before I leave, Gillian takes my arm lightly.

- (speaking softly) Raphaela, think about what I just said. David is not someone like them and I would not like to see another friend break up because of such bullshit.

- (speaking quietly) If it was bullshit, he shouldn't have done that.

Gillian releases my arm and I head towards the exit of the cafeteria...

I will hate this day so much if something unusual happen again...