Chapter 9: Refutation_2
In his view, given the current situation, even with his status as the head of the Abnormal Strategy Bureau, he couldn't offer any constructive advice to progress the conversation. To sway Bai Jingxuan's decision, he seemed to need to change his perspective, or even adopt a different identity.
Since Bai Jingxuan's thoughts were related to Emerald Sparrow, her opinion would undoubtedly be more useful. Perhaps if he approached her as a teacher, Bai Jingxuan might be somewhat more receptive.
However, Bai Jingxuan didn't respond.
After listening to Lin Yun's words, she just stared at him, her expression complex, and it was unclear what she was thinking. Lin Yun could only see her expression change from serious to hesitant, from hesitant to resolute, and finally, she spoke again:
"But Uncle, you hate those bad people too, right?"
"I already know, Uncle, you're Lin Xiaolu's father, Sakura-senpai is Lin Xiaolu's mother, so Sakura-senpai is your wife, isn't she?"
Bai Jingxuan fidgeted with the hem of her skirt, "She died at the hands of those people, so you should hate them too, detest them. Is it not okay for me to take revenge on them?"
"...It has nothing to do with you."
Lin Yun lowered his gaze, looking into Bai Jingxuan's eyes: "This matter is much more complicated than you think."
"Don't you want to take revenge on them, Uncle?"
"I do, but not in the form of 'slaughter,' 'torture.'"
"I don't understand," Bai Jingxuan also lowered her head.
"You don't have to understand, but I can promise you that those criminals lurking in Fangting City will receive the punishment they deserve."
Lin Yun tapped his finger on the table, "So you don't need to dirty your hands. Just stand by and watch their downfall, applauding will suffice, okay?"
"But that's not my revenge, is it?" Bai Jingxuan still kept her head down.
"Revenge never has to be carried out by your own hands."
"...If I don't kill them myself, it feels like nothing, Uncle."
Bai Jingxuan lifted her head, her obedient and serene eyes reflecting emptiness: "I still want to go myself."
"Then I will never let you go, Bai Jingxuan."
There was no one else in the office, so Lin Yun no longer disguised his tone and directly called out the girl's name: "I will not let a Magical Girl join my staff in killing people, even if those people are completely villainous."
"But Teacher killed the bad people!"
"Your teacher is an adult, you are not. Your situations are different."
"It has nothing to do with being an adult or not!"
"It does."
Lin Yun's pace of tapping on the table gradually quickened: "Because no adult would allow such an act to happen before their eyes."
"Why not?" Bai Jingxuan was puzzled.
"Our lives are already set, but you still have hope."
Lin Yun looked seriously at the girl in front of him: "We have taken on the burden of killing and are doomed to continue along this path. But you haven't yet, you still have other possibilities for your life."
"I might not need such possibilities!"
Bai Jingxuan said anxiously, raising her voice: "Being like Teacher is good too!"
"Is your teacher really good? Why do you think that?"
Lin Yun countered: "Is there a possibility that she also often regrets her past actions?"
"No way!" Bai Jingxuan responded with dissatisfaction, "Teacher has saved everyone and punished the bad people, how could she have regrets?"
"Yes, she does." Lin Yun's voice became somber: "In places you don't know about, your teacher often regrets her actions, or rather, she's always regretting."
"Why? Uncle, how would you know these things?"
Because I am Emerald Sparrow.
Lin Yun really wanted to say it out loud.
There was no deliberate reason for Lin Yun, who was also the Emerald Sparrow, to hide this fact from Bai Jingxuan. The only reason he hadn't explained before was that Bai Jingxuan was too young and might accidentally reveal the truth in front of Lin Xiaolu.
But now, compared to such a minor possibility, Bai Jingxuan's psychological issues obviously took precedence. If revealing his identity here could help move the conversation forward, then admitting it wouldn't be a bad thing.
So, should he admit it? Should he confess his identity here and tell her as a teacher that he does not approve of such behavior?
In such a situation, would revealing his identity really help change the course of events, rather than making everything worse?
Just as Lin Yun was pondering whether to reveal the truth, Bai Jingxuan spoke up again, asking a question that left Lin Yun utterly blank:
——"Is it because Uncle you are going to marry Teacher?"
"Because... huh?"
Lin Yun swallowed the words he was about to say, looking up in surprise: "What did you say?"
"Is it because Uncle you've decided to marry Teacher, so you don't care about Senior Ying's affairs anymore?" Perhaps because Lin Yun's reaction was a bit exaggerated, Bai Jingxuan shrank a little fearfully after shouting those words.
"Where did you hear such a thing?" Lin Yun asked woodenly.
"Moke told me!"
Bai Jingxuan was somewhat timid but soon mustered her courage: "It said that you and Teacher have a very good relationship, you are already like a couple, and you might end up together!"
"It's talking nonsense." Lin Yun stated categorically.
At the same time, although he didn't show it on his face, he had already made a silent decision in his heart. He would have to talk to Nini when he got back and tell her to increase the discipline for Moke.
"If Uncle you are going to marry Teacher, shouldn't you want revenge for Senior Ying even more!"
On the other side, Bai Jingxuan completely ignored his words and continued: "If you two really end up together, then at least you should let Senior Ying rest in peace!"
"Where did you hear such nonsense?" Lin Yun's eyes twitched involuntarily.
"Xia Liang sister said so!"
This girl.
Lin Yun seemed to envision Xia Liang's mischievous smile in his mind.
"And, there's more!"
Bai Jingxuan tried hard to remember, contemplating, her fingers waving aimlessly in the air, and then as if she remembered something, her eyes lit up and she exclaimed loudly:
"If Uncle you marry Teacher, then you might adopt me afterward, and if you adopt me, then Uncle you would be my dad, and Teacher would be my mom!"
"Dad! Let me go, I want to take revenge!"
The office fell into a silence as deep as death.
This statement was too shocking for Lin Yun, and because he was so astonished, he completely forgot about the action of knocking on the desk, and his foot had stopped shaking under the desk without him realizing. He looked at Bai Jingxuan and for a moment forgot even what expression to make, only managing to ask weakly:
"...Who told you this?"
"Lin Xiaolu sister told me this!"
Bai Jingxuan said earnestly.
Lin Yun fell silent again.
He lowered his head, reconsidering his previous plan about whether or not to reveal his identity to Bai Jingxuan.
If before he was leaning toward admitting his true identity, after hearing Bai Jingxuan's last few statements, he had completely abandoned the idea.
With this kid's loose lips, if he told her his identity, Lin Xiaolu would probably know by tomorrow.
"...Let's put the topic of revenge aside for now."
After thinking it through, he raised his head again, his face showing a somewhat kind and gentle expression, and he asked softly, "First, tell me, what else did your 'Lin Xiaolu sister' tell you?"