Chapter 62: Gradus Ascensionis XII
The flames roared higher, dancing with a strange light that mirrored the fire igniting within Tenza. She was more than a combatant now. She was a living paradox, her vulnerability sharpening her resolve. The energy coursing through her began to bleed into the realm itself. The digital boundary between her avatar and her real body weakened—her flesh burning, her wounds visible within the DRD as if the two worlds were fusing into one.
Her right foot, once clad in the sleek armor of her avatar, was now bare, blistered, a stark reminder of the toll this battle was taking. Her fists, cracked and bloodied, no longer bore just the digital scars of combat, but the real ones—her physical self bleeding into this virtual space, the DRD struggling to maintain the divide.
The jotunn hesitated for the briefest of moments, sensing the rudimentary sparks of anima—an unrefined spiritual power blossoming within her. He had faced warriors, gods, and beasts, but this woman, burning from within, was becoming something altogether different. He could feel it—the fragile, flickering ember of the phoenix in her soul. She was fighting to protect it, yet unknowingly, she threatened it.
Tenza, unaware of this, thought only of victory. Every breath she took was a step closer to the future she sought. Her daughter's face appeared before her, the hope she clung to in a life marred by loss and regret. The flames responded, roaring with renewed intensity as her fists drove into the jotunn with invigorated ferocity. She was winning—she could feel it in her bones.
The jotunn, however, did not see the inevitability of his defeat. He saw the risk. The phoenix—if it died here, in the conflagration of this fight, it would not rise again. His voice, deep and resonant, echoed above the din of the flames. "You are strong, human. But strength alone does not save. There is more at stake than you know."
Tenza barely registered his words. Her mind was a torrent of focus, her heart racing. She could feel it—victory within reach. But then, in the very heart of her resolve, something shifted. The flames around them twisted, bending to her will, as if answering an unspoken command.
A word she did not recognize surfaced in her mind: Eldare.
The world around her pulsed with energy. The flames, once oppressive and threatening, now danced at her fingertips, eager to obey. She felt the power surge within her, instinctively channeling it into her next strike. The flames followed her fist as it soared through the air, a blazing comet of raw power aimed at the jotunn.
His eyes widened, not with fear for himself, but for the phoenix. He raised his massive arms in defense, but it was too late. The spell had been cast.
Eldare—a tier 2 fire spell, far beyond anything she should have been able to summon at this stage. But the fires obeyed her, fueled by her determination, by the spiritual energy she had begun to unlock.
The impact was cataclysmic. The flames engulfed the jotunn, and for a brief moment, the entire kiln became a searing sun, casting both combatants in an ethereal glow. Tenza staggered back, her breath ragged, her body trembling with exhaustion. She had felt the surge of power, but the cost was immense. Her body—both real and digital—was breaking under the strain.
The jotunn, scorched and battered, stood motionless, his eyes fixed on her. He had feared for the phoenix, but now... now he saw something else. The fire had not consumed her—it had answered her. And then, he understood.
"You do not seek power for yourself," he said, his voice softer now, reverberating with newfound respect. "You are burning for something greater."
Tenza, barely standing, looked up at him. Her fists were still clenched, her resolve unshaken, but she could feel it—the paradox she had become.
But victory did not come.
Despite the fierce battle, despite the birth of the newfound spell Eldast from the phoenix's cry, Tenza now knelt in the ashes of defeat. Her body trembled, the weight of her failure pressing down on her soul. The echo of the phoenix's final cry reverberated in her chest, shattering her heart into fragments. Confusion washed over her like a tidal wave, drowning her in the stark reality that, for all her power, she had not won. There was no triumph here—only the hollow, bitter taste of failure.
Before her, the jotunn stood still, his gaze heavy with disappointment. She felt his silent judgment pierce through her, but it wasn't just his. Her eyes slowly adjusted to the dimming fires of the kiln, and for the first time, she truly saw them—the spirits of the Muisca. They had been there all along, watching, waiting, as she struggled both in this virtual world and in the real one. Their spectral forms hovered in the darkened air, their faces etched with disillusionment. They had placed hope in her, and now, that hope had crumbled to dust.
She had failed.
Just as she had failed before—failed her daughter, failed herself—she had faltered here at the precipice of victory. Her chest tightened with a familiar ache. Their judgment was a silent knife to her heart, twisting with each beat. She could feel their eyes, piercing, disappointed, as if her entire existence had led only to this—an unbroken string of failures.
The flames in the kiln dimmed further as the phoenix's final cry echoed one last time. The jotunn, with a gentleness that belied his colossal form, reached out, attempting to cradle the majestic bird as its fire faded. But it was too late. The phoenix disintegrated into ash, its life force extinguished in a flurry of embers. The air, once alive with heat and energy, became heavy with stillness. The kiln itself seemed to breathe its last, the once-roaring fires reduced to nothing but suffocating darkness.
Tenza's fists, once brimming with strength, fell slack at her sides. She could feel the darkness pressing in on her, suffocating her, amplifying every doubt, every failure she had ever endured. The inner light that had guided her through so many trials flickered weakly, on the verge of extinguishing. The isolation she had fought so hard to overcome returned with full force, an old, familiar pain clawing at her insides. She had failed not just in this battle, but in every way that mattered.
Her breath came shallow and ragged as her thoughts spiraled. She had lost her chance. The phoenix—the symbol of rebirth, of renewal—was dead, and with it, her hope. She had failed to protect it, failed to rise to the challenge that had been placed before her. The weight of her own expectations crushed her, pressing her deeper into the ashes.
A tear slipped down her cheek, though she barely registered it. The jotunn, too, stood in silence, his broad shoulders sagging under the realization of what had been lost. His disappointment was no longer just with her—it was with the cosmic order itself. The phoenix, the one force that should have been eternal, had perished under his watch. He had sought to protect it, but now, its ashes fell like dust between his massive fingers.
For a moment, there was nothing but silence—broken, hollow silence.
Yet, as Tenza stared at the ground, lost in the depths of her despair, a faint glow caught her eye. Her breath hitched as she looked down at her open palm. There, amid the darkness and ash, a small, delicate light flickered—the tears of the phoenix. They shimmered in the gloom, a faint but unwavering beacon. Her heart, broken as it was, stirred faintly at the sight.
A memory from Dision's tales resurfaced, a story he had once told her of the phoenix—the eternal bird of life and death. The words, spoken long ago in the comfort of the magical place under the mighty guayacan tree, echoed in her mind now, in this desolate moment:
"From the fire, the bird in flames rises, brilliant phoenix, legend of flames. Lord of the fiery, his song exclaims, there is never balance in the scales of life and death. Fire consumes all darkness, but the song of the phoenix is a rumble. The forces of Hades, the heroes of Zeus, there is no one who can stop its flight! The divine flame, with brilliance illuminates because the power of the phoenix eliminates evil! Neither time nor death, can cage the bird in flames, lord of resurrection!"
The words wrapped around her like a lifeline, pulling her back from the edge. Her gaze remained fixed on the glowing tears in her hand, their light growing stronger as the memory took hold. Resurrection. The phoenix did not end with death; its very nature was to rise again from the ashes. Her heart, though still weighed down by the agony of failure, began to beat with a faint rhythm of hope.
In the depths of her despair, she realized something. She had failed, yes. She had lost the battle, the phoenix had perished, and the spirits of the Muisca turned away in silent judgment. But this was not the end. The tears of the phoenix, glowing in her palm, whispered of something more—the promise of rebirth. She had been crushed under the weight of her own expectations, but from this, she could rise again.
Slowly, painfully, she lifted her head. Her gaze found the jotunn, who stood in the fading shadows, still as stone. His disappointment had been palpable, but now there was something else in his eyes—a flicker of recognition. He, too, had seen the tears in her hand. He, too, knew the legend of the phoenix.
"You have failed," the jotunn rumbled, his voice low, furious but almost mournful. "But failure is not the end. You stand in the ashes, human, and yet you hold the promise of life."
Tenza's breath caught in her throat. She had failed but she was not defeated. Not yet. Her heart stirred, a flicker of new determination igniting within her. The tears of the phoenix shimmered brighter in her hand, and with them, the promise of a new beginning.
She had been broken—but from these ashes, the phoenix will allow her to rise.
The jotunn's fury erupted in a storm of raw, unbridled rage. With the phoenix's death, the ancient guardian became a tempest, his colossal fists like hammers, shattering the kiln with each devastating blow. The very earth trembled beneath his wrath, and stone fragments rained down like a violent storm. Yet amidst the chaos, Tenza stood still. She did not flee. She did not flinch. She allowed herself to become a vessel for his fury, absorbing the physical destruction as it mirrored the anguish searing through her heart.
The last cry of the phoenix echoed endlessly in her soul, a sound too deep and sorrowful to ever be forgotten. The flames of failure licked at her spirit, each shattering punch from the jotunn driving her deeper into the crucible of her own suffering. But she remained focused, eyes set on the HUD before her. Each pulse of pain honed her determination, shaping the core of something new—a power born not of victory, but of defeat.
Her fingers trembled as she began to craft a spell within the game's interface. It was unlike anything she had tried before, a culmination of every battle, every fire, every lesson. The runes of Eld, Eldare, and Eldast pulsed before her eyes, flickering with potential, merging together. But this time, they were not enough. Tenza's mind, fueled by the phoenix's tears and her will, pushed beyond the limits of the game's mechanics. She reached into the very code of Eschenfrau, bending its rules to her will. It was not just magic—it was creation from the depths of defeat, something the world of Eschenfrau had never seen.
Through the torrent of the jotunn's fury, her voice broke the chaos, a hoarse, sad whisper rising from the shattered ground: "Eldaja... my fulgent fire..."
Her voice cracked, but the spell she had forged in her HUD flared to life. Her tears, silently falling, mingled with the blood and sweat that stained her bruised face. Her entire body trembled under the weight of her effort, as if every fiber of her being was on the edge of breaking. But she did not stop. She could not stop. From the abyss of her despair, she reached out, imploring the distant star she had once confided in, summoning the light she had thought lost.
Then, in a flash of incandescent brilliance, Eldaja ignited.
The flames that roared to life were unlike any that had ever been seen in Eschenfrau—a blue fire, fierce and otherworldly, hotter than the core of any sun. It did not merely burn; it transcended, superheating the air, bending light itself as it swept through the kiln, consuming the remains of the shattered earth. The spell's creation had defied the game's very rules, and now its flames defied reality. They danced with a deadly grace, their incandescent heat drawing from the ashes of the fallen phoenix.
And from those ashes, a miracle was born.
The phoenix emerged once more, but this time, it was no mere resurrection. Stronger, more radiant than ever before, the bird burst into being from the heart of Tenza's flame, its wings blazing with the intensity of a thousand stars. Its body, woven from the blue fire, shimmered with an ethereal glow, every feather glowing with the essence of both life and death. The very air vibrated with the force of its rebirth, and as it spread its wings, the entire kiln became bathed in a light so brilliant it pierced through the fire itself.
The phoenix let out a cry—not of despair, but of triumph, a sound that reverberated through the heavens, a resounding declaration that it had reclaimed its throne over the fire. Its wings beat with a force that shook the earth, and with a single, powerful stroke, it soared upward, tearing through the darkened skies above the kiln. Its flight was the rebirth of a star, an ascension that defied all that had come before. Higher and higher it flew, leaving a trail of shimmering blue fire in its wake, a new sun rising in a sky filled with chaos.
The spirits of the Muisca, who had once looked upon Tenza with judgment, now watched in awe as the phoenix ascended. It was no longer just a symbol of death and rebirth—it was the manifestation of her resilience. She had forged this new life with her will, her suffering, and her fire. The phoenix, her new companion of her own creation, blazed its way back to the heavens, a sovereign of light, reborn from the ashes of their shared defeat.
From the ground, surrounded by the blue flames, Tenza smiled—a broken, weary smile, but one filled with fulfillment. Her body was battered, her spirit nearly shattered, but she had endured. She had bent the rules of this world, not as a mere player, but as a creator. The fire that burned within her was no longer a borrowed power—it was hers, a reflection of her struggles and her survival.
The jotunn, now calmed, stood tall amid the remnants of the kiln. His once-raging eyes softened as he looked upon Tenza, a newfound respect flickering in his gaze. He could feel the change in the very essence of the world around him, the shift in the balance of power.
"I wish that your power grows," the jotunn rumbled, his voice deep and resonant, echoing with the ancient wisdom of his kind. "In struggle, in fire, and in the battles yet to come. I wish you victory on Earth... and justice in heaven, Tenza…"
As the words left his lips, the great jotunn, once a towering force of fury, began to crumble. His massive form, like a mountain succumbing to the erosion of time, broke apart, piece by piece, until only dust remained. Yet in his final moments, a soft smile graced his face. The kiln, once a place of torment and despair, now stood as a monolith of her resilience, a crucible of transformation.
Tenza was no longer just a player in this world. She was no longer merely a warrior in the shadows of legends. She had become something more—a guardian of the phoenix, a flamekeeper whose fire could not be extinguished. Her journey, marked by failure and rebirth, had reshaped her into a warrior mother, forged in the fires of her trials and reborn alongside the majestic bird.
Tenza lay on the scorched earth, her breath heavy and labored, eyes fixed on the sky where the kiln's roof had once been. The phoenix, in its majestic flight, had shattered its old prison, now soaring like a shooting star. As it flew, it mended the sky, piece by piece—the first part of her spell and her quest repaired, though the victory weighed heavily on her body, mind, and spirit.
The flames surrounding her did not burn, for they were born of her own fulgent fire, drawn from her deepest aspirations and desires. They warmed her, a strange comfort in the midst of her exhaustion, a reminder of her resilience.
Eld, the askafroan caretaker, approached silently, his presence steady and calm. With deliberate care, he helped her sit, feeling her body tremble, her breath still ragged. His touch grounded her, a quiet recognition of the battle she had fought and the strength she had yet to regain.
As she looked up at the sky, now mending above her, the weight of her journey settled deeply within her. Tired but undaunted, her eyes reflected the light of her inner fire, the embers of her wish still burning bright.
"You've given too much, Tenza" Eld's voice was deep, like the rustling of ancient trees, and as he spoke, the crackling of the flames seemed to fall into rhythm with his words. His eyes, glowing like molten amber, regarded her with a mix of reverence and understanding.
She nodded, too weary to respond aloud, her body trembling from the effort of the fight, and the lingering weight of the phoenix's resurrection still pressing on her soul.
"Fire is a gift, one that consumes but also renews," Eld began softly, resting a hand on her shoulder. His touch was cool, a contrast to the heat surrounding them. "You've touched upon something deeper than mere power. What you've done is not just magic. It is palingenesia—rebirth through destruction. From ashes, something new always rises."
He turned, lifting his hand toward the newly reborn phoenix, its wings stretching out into the vastness of the sky above them. "Do you see it?" His voice was hushed, reverent. "The flames you conjured were more than fire. They were the vessel through which life itself was born anew. That, Tenza, is palingenesia—the transformation of what was into something greater. The death of the old so the new may rise stronger, truer."
Tenza's tired eyes followed his gaze, watching as the phoenix soared, leaving a trail of shimmering embers in the air. She had felt the transformation, the shifting of her spirit, yet it still ached inside her. The triumph was bittersweet.
Eld's voice grew quieter, more contemplative, as if he were reflecting on ancient truths. "But rebirth is not just about renewal. What you've created here, what the phoenix represents, is also kenogenesia. Not merely the cycle of life and death but the birth of something new, something the world has never seen before."
He knelt beside her, his fingers tracing the scorched earth gently. "The phoenix's rebirth was not just its return—it is a new creation, born from your Eldaja spell. You've crafted a fire that did not exist before today. A flame forged from your very soul, from your trials, your pain, and your hope. That is kenogenesia, Tenza—the birth of something completely new in the world."
Tenza blinked, feeling the weight of his words sink into her bones. She had felt the change but hadn't understood the depth of it. Her flame, her Eldaja, had done more than revive the phoenix—it had given birth to a new force, one born from her own struggle.
Eld smiled gently, his voice softening further as he sensed her realization. "Your ancestors knew this, Tenza. The Muisca, they understood the balance between destruction and creation, between the old and the new. They have never left you, just as the flames never leave their source. Look closer, and you'll see."
At Eld's urging, Tenza turned her gaze to the shadows beyond the flames, and there, within the flickering light, she saw them—the spirits of the Muisca. They stood as silent sentinels, watching over her, their eyes filled not with judgment but pride. Among them, the figure of Zipa Nemequene, unwavering and strong, watched her with quiet approval.
Zipa Nemequene appeared through the flames, his figure adorned with the shimmering emeralds and precious metals that once symbolized his reign. Each step he took was deliberate, commanding the fire as if it were his to control, as if the flames respected his former glory. His presence, even as a specter, radiated authority and respect. The flames danced around him, acknowledging his magnificence.
As he approached Tenza, his eyes sparkled with pride. He looked upon her with a deep sense of satisfaction, unable to contain his happiness. Here was a descendant as powerful and resilient as the guecha warriors of his time. His heart swelled with pride, not just for her lineage but for her battle.
Though a ghost of his past, his aura demanded reverence. He halted before Tenza, her body still trembling from the battle and exhaustion, but also because she was in the presence of her glorious ancestor. With a gesture befitting a great ruler, he bowed his head—not just to salute a descendant, but to honor a mother warrior, a figure deserving of his utmost respect.
Tenza's breath caught in her throat. The weight of Zipa Nemequene's gaze made her feel small yet seen, fragile yet strong. Her body quivered with exhaustion, but more than that, with the overwhelming urge to let go—to release the torrent of tears that had been threatening to spill since the battle had ended. But how could she? Not here, not before him. She clenched her fists, her jaw tight, fighting to maintain composure.
I can't… not now… she thought, her vision blurring. It felt almost disrespectful to cry in front of him, as if her tears would insult the honor he was bestowing upon her. She struggled to hold them back, fighting the emotions that swelled inside her, desperate to show strength in his presence. Every fiber of her being screamed for release, yet she forced herself to remain still, her face tight with restraint.
Zipa Nemequene paused, his perceptive eyes taking in her turmoil, understanding the battle she fought within. His expression softened—not out of pity, but of deep, ancestral understanding. He could see the fierce respect and pride Tenza held for him, and how that same respect was now causing her to choke on her own pain, unwilling to let herself break.
In his wisdom, the Zipa did not push. Instead, he acknowledged her internal struggle with a slight nod, a gesture so subtle yet filled with compassion. His voice, when it came, was as gentle as the flames that surrounded them.
"My descendant," he began, "you stand before me not merely as blood of my blood, but as a warrior who has faced the crucible and emerged unbroken. The fires of this kiln could not extinguish your spirit, for it burns brighter than any flame. In your veins runs the courage of our ancestors, the strength that once built empires and faced insurmountable odds."
Tenza felt the tightness in her chest increase, the urge to cry nearly unbearable. She blinked furiously, trying to keep her emotions locked away, not wanting to appear weak. But Zipa's words, laced with such reverence and understanding, only made it harder. She felt the trembling in her hands worsen as his voice seemed to both lift her up and unravel her defenses.
"In your struggle," Zipa continued, "I saw the rebirth of our legacy. Your determination to protect, to endure, and to rise again even in the face of defeat, is the mark of a true warrior. I am proud of you, not just for your strength, but for your heart, which has guided you through the darkest of times."
He glanced at her side, where the katana Chia rested, its blade now a part of her. "Your friend, that descendant of knights, has given you a fitting weapon for modern battles. May Chia illuminate your path and grant you strength, Tenza."
His words, meant to inspire, finally tipped the balance. Despite her best efforts, the flood of emotion she had been holding back surged forward. Tenza's vision blurred completely, and her breath hitched, but still, she clenched her teeth, fighting to hold back the tears, desperate to remain composed before him. She could not let herself fall apart, not here, not now.
Zipa, ever watchful, saw the battle she fought. His smile softened, and for a moment, there was no judgment in his gaze—only deep understanding. He had once been a warrior too, after all, one who had felt the burden of leadership, the pressure to remain unbroken. He had known the weight of tears unshed.
With a final nod of respect, he released her from that burden. His form shimmered like a fading ember, and in his departure, he gave her permission to let go.
Tenza, her body battered and spirit worn, could hold it in no longer. As Zipa Nemequene's presence dissolved into the flames, the dam within her broke. She collapsed forward, her hands trembling as her tears finally fell, unchecked. Her shoulders shook with silent sobs as she pressed her head into Eld's chest, unable to hold back any longer. It was a release she hadn't realized she so desperately needed. Her tears flowed freely, not in shame, but in the rawness of exhaustion, pain, and catharsis.
Eld held her gently, his arms strong yet comforting as her body shuddered against him. He said nothing, simply providing her the space to let her emotions flow. The flames around them seemed to quiet, as if out of respect for the moment. Her silent sobs were her release—a purging of all that had weighed her down, both in this battle and in her life.
Her family may have abandoned her, but in this moment, she knew, deep in her heart, that her ancestors never had. She felt their presence through the warmth of the flames, their pride binding her wounds in a way that no physical healing ever could. Zipa's words echoed in her mind, carrying with them the weight of her lineage and the strength she had long sought. The pride in his gaze soothed the ache of her soul, filling the void that her family had left.
Eld stood firm, a steady anchor in the storm of her emotions. His hands rested lightly on her back as her sobs subsided, leaving only the sound of her ragged breath and the soft crackle of the fire. Tenza, finally feeling the weight lift from her heart, knew that while the battle had taken its toll, she would rise again. She was not alone.
And as her tears fell into the flames, they did not extinguish them. They only made them burn brighter and fiercer.
Tenza's sobs gradually die out, her body still leaning into Eld's quiet strength. The fire around them softened, flickering as if it too was catching its breath. Silence enveloped her, heavy yet soothing, like the calm after a storm. Her ancestors' pride lingered in her mind, a warm ember of comfort.
The weight of exhaustion draped over her, but beneath that, a quiet resolve began to take shape. Tenza could feel the strength Zipa Nemequene had spoken of—fragile, perhaps, but rekindling deep within her. The warrior spirit that had sustained her ancestors was now stirring in her veins, refusing to be extinguished.
As her tears dried and her breathing steadied, a soft chime echoed in her ear, almost imperceptible at first. Her HUD flickered gently, a new notification pulsing in the corner of her vision. Tenza blinked, momentarily confused, as the message unfolded before her.
"Sensei Leonardo invites you to a private training session."
For a moment, Tenza hesitated, the remnants of her emotional release still raw. But the invitation felt different—almost as if it had been waiting for her, like Sensei Leonardo somehow knew what she had just endured. His timing was impeccable, not intrusive, but perfectly aligned with her need for something familiar, something to anchor her as she pieced herself back together.
It wasn't just an invitation to train. It was an acknowledgment. Sensei Leonardo had always understood the depths of struggle that went beyond mere physical endurance. He had seen through her facade before—through the toughness, the warrior's mask—and now, in this quiet moment, it seemed he was offering her a way to process it all. A path to center herself again.
The flames in the kiln seemed to flicker in time with her HUD, as if reality itself was gently pulling her toward the virtual dojo. She closed her eyes, feeling the weight of the world fall away, the warmth of Eld's silent support still grounding her.
With a slow, deep breath, Tenza allowed herself to surrender to the pull.
The world around her shifted, the gentle crackle of flames replaced by the distant hum of the virtual dojo. She found herself laying in the familiar space—dimly lit, the bamboo floors cool beneath her feet, the air thick with quiet focus. The faint smell of incense greeted her, grounding her immediately.
And there, at the center of the room, stood Sensei Leonardo, his back to her, as if he had been waiting. He made no grand gestures, no remarks about her tears or her emotional state. Instead, his presence was steady, calm, and patient.
He knew.
Without turning to face her, his voice resonated quietly in the stillness.
"I'm glad that you finally understood, Fiona," he said, his words gentle but deliberate, almost as if he had been waiting to say them for some time.
"You turned hellish red into heavenly blue."