The day I let go

It's 6 am and I'm wide awake , just staring into space , Inéz snores lightly it's bearable . I remember one time when I passed in front of Ale's room he snores so loudly , it was the topic for a week at home .

As for me I don't snore except when my nose is blocked due to cold though .. I believe that's normal actually .. But I've felt abnormal things in my life and it hunts me .

Flashback

" Why do you want to be homeschooled ? Diana quit acting like a freak " Ale has always been annoying but I felt weird on that day " shut up " but I just walked away . " You hungry Princesa ? " Uncle always cared about my health , always made sure I was healthy and happy at least he tried for the happy part , but I guess I was never really made to feel that emotion . As I retreated to my bedroom I had this feeling .. I couldn't quite place my hand on it , even when I layed in bed . I didn't go down for dinner I just layed down staring into nothing , it became a forced habit , I did that till I slept off .

" Diana freshen up and come down for a breakfast " I've never been a morning person I 've always known and then and there I knew I wasn't wrong because I felt so heavy as I grumbled into my pillow " I should still be asleep jeez !!! " Forced to freshen up I finally headed downstairs

" look who it is ?!! The princess finally graced us with her presence"

" Shut up Ale " I honestly didn't have strength to argue with him which constantly happend I just wouldn't have strength to argue not with him and not with anyone , I'd just avoid him it was weird because I didn't do that . I didn't know why I did it but I was sure he noticed .

" Are you avoiding me D? , why ?" Welp .. he really did notice , how am I supposed to tell him that I have this feeling that something was about to change with me , how do you tell your brother that you feel weird and you are avoiding any argument because you don't want to hurt him or you feel you will hurt him ? I mean common ! It's me .. I'm just a girl and he's .. well.. a boy , naturally he has more strength than me , he will just mock me , but i know what I'm feeling.

" So you are avoiding me !! , that's why you can't answer me " I can't even form words

"What's there not to avoid Ale ? " Sweet Eve if not for Rami I still wouldn't have said anything

" you are my twin , what happened to having my back ? Huh Rami ? "

" Well she's our sister , Ale stop bullying her and hurry up we have school to attend " I watch As Rami leaves the dining to go finish getting ready for school I won't lie sometimes I wonder how it's like to attend school and not be homeschooled , but nah I'm happy with being homeschooled

" You just love school " Ale grumbles as he catches up with his brother

" You okay Princesa ?" Am I ? I honestly have no idea but I'll figure it out I hope

" I'm great uncle , please excuse me " I don't look back till I'm in my room

" What is happening today ? " Asking myself that outloud doesn't help .

" Princess the AC is on .. " why is he telling me that?

" Why are you sweating ? I mean how can you sweat , I'm cold " oh I touched my forehead , I'm sweating .. Oh

" I don't know I feel sick , I don't understand"

" Your temperature is quite high " I watch him as he places his hand on my forehead

" Scratch that you are at boiling point .. how ?" I honestly don't want to bother him

" Has this happened before ?" Which part ? The temperature or how I feel ?

" Umm. Not that I can remember" sweet Eve I'm so hot ! ..

" I'll call your mother , she has to know what's wrong , for now why don't you go to your room I'll be there soon " I didn't need go be told twice , even my movements are slower

" Alison get over here now !! There's something wrong with Diana and ...." I didn't wait to hear the rest

" Okay Diana maybe it's just a strong fever , I mean what else could be wrong with you ? " Ah I'm just trying to calm myself down and it's honestly not working , I'll just lay down till Mama gets here

" God I'm dying , save a sit for me please " I'm not okay !!

" Come in !" He looks genuinely worried

" Your mum is here princesa "

" Mama !!!" On my feet about to jump but what can I say Surprises happen

" Stay away from me , I don't know you "

" Mama it's me , your D , your princess " I can't help the tears

" My daughter!!" I watch her as she scoffs

" My daughter you say , do you even know yourself anymore ? Do you know who you are !!" . I feel it , I feel it now

" I called you here for help do not make it worse !" That's the first time I've heard uncle yell

" Why because you can't stand the truth ? !! She's not normal , she's not .. I couldn't believe it at first, I didn't want to believe the stupid prophecy , I didn't but you Played it out bit by bit , you are a monster " .

" That's enough Alise " now I actually wanted to hear this

" So what is wrong me mother "

" I am not your mother " so loud

" Ma..ma , ple...ase I'm yours "

" No no you aren't, you are a monster " am I ?

" Mama stop "

" You don't wanna hear the truth, you are the devil , entwined in devil's blood but born out of a woman , i loved your father so much, but one day he came home drunk with a friend , they forced themselves on me or his friend forced himself on me and your father looked me in the eyes and said " breathe woman, you are doing this to keep me safe i saw the faint glow of the man's eyes as he had his way with me... I watched his eyes change .. I cried till I passed out " on my knees I have nothing left to say

" Why you so quiet ? You are the result of an abomination, you have the devil in you "

" So what's wrong with me ma... I swear I'll fix it just don't hate me ..." I can't even call her , I hurt her , I've always hurt her even when I didn't mean , it had always been my fault

" Everything is wrong with you and you can't fix it .. I already hate you " she can't just go , It might be my fault but I need help

" You can't just go like that , you can't leave me alone , nooo ,nooo noo , nooooooooo"

I no longer thought of anything

" Diana .. Diana stop it " I peeled my eyes open and nothing would prepare me for the sight before me .

" What ... I'm sorry , I'm so .. sorry " I muttered as I brushed past my uncle with my mum in his arms

" I .. didn't mean to " and then I ran , I ran till I couldn't run anymore .

" Diana !! Diana .." I heard my name being called but I couldn't speak

" Hey.. hey D .. , you are okay , it's fine .. Aleee !! I've found her " and never in a million years would I have thought I would be so happy to see Rami .

I remained still as Rami carried me back , but not to my room he layed me down on the couch carefully, being so gentle with a monster , why? I finally found the words

" I'm a monster Rami ... I'm... " He stays with me while Ale goes to get a wet towel , I felt irritated , why are they doing this ? And then it clicks again

" Aren't we all monsters?"

" Mama... Where's she ? Where's she Rami ?" Oh sweet Eve if I killed my mother I'll die , I'll die .. I'll .

" Relax she's fine ...unfortunately" oh thank God

" How's you doing" uncle asks as he sits down across

" I'm alright " at least I'm trying to be ..

" It's a lot to process " wait a minute

" It's a lot to process for everyone ... Right ? ... Unless you knew didn't you ?" He knew and he didn't tell me

" Ale you knew too ? Did you know that I'm ..." Please no

" I did " my last hope I tried to search for it in Rami's eyes but he closed them because he knew

" Why didn't any of you tell me , I destroyed upstairs .. I almost killed mum .. I could have hurt one of you ... WHYYY.. WHYY " I screamed till I could no longer speak , just fell on my knees and broke allowing my tears to speak for me

" Diana you need to calm down please " tsk

My hand is glowing , and not the good kind , it's like I'm a time bomb , the slightest emotion I feel the more dangerous i become ha!! Ironic isn't it ? Now that I know that I'm different things finally make sense but I still feel empty maybe now I'm more empty than before.. it's tiring

" We will solve this together , the four of us as a family , we will handle this " I'm trying to find fear beneath uncle's eyes but I see none same thing with Rami and Ale .

" You don't understand, I can't control it "

" Control is something you learn Princesa " Of course Ramiro will know all about control , he's all about it .

" Honestly princess we were shocked when we first found out but then we decided to love you despite that , which is why we seem a little bit calm about it " I adored my uncle the more now , but I'm not gonna tell him that

" Okay so I have a list of people I need you to obliterate " I couldn't hold it back ...I laughed but it sounded like sobbing so I did both

" Don't be stupid Ale " even though he's smiling , I might live a normal life after all

" You have unanswered questions and I get it but today you need to rest " I couldn't agree more I slept in another room which would automatically make it my room since my other room is ...well will soon be under construction and I hadn't slept so peacefully in years the way I slept , even my body felt it in the morning because I was the first person to wake up , I finally understood why I can't be literally normal but then i realized i deserve normal ish .

Present

" Are you listening to me ? " I opened my eyes to meet Stacy's

" I don't know Stacy am I ? "

" Okay let's do this .. what's the one thing all parents warned or told their kids about ?" Now we are playing games . Inéz answered the question, she's become more outspoken these days " strangers " she still has that low voice but it's better now

" And what's the one phrase they used for us all ?" Won't hurt to answer I guess

" Don't talk to strangers" Although I have done that already

" Yayyy now would you tell me your name ?" Damn it all ..

" Diana , my name is Diana "

" Finally Inéz we know her name ." What's so important about my name

" So do you talk to strangers ?" Do I ? Did I ?

" Unfortunately I recently did " I didn't hear the rest , but my mind went to a certain starnger .

" Diana !! Tell us who ?" Unknown

" I didn't know his name " I didn't ask

" Is he handsome ?" How am I suppose to know that ?

" Ah jeez , I'll make sure I meet him next time so I can check !" Dummy

" Okay fine .. "

" Diana so about your brother..." I can't believe this girl

" What about him ?" Like I don't know why she's asking of him

" Umm by any chance is he into silver haired girls ?" I honestly don't know his type but I know he likes smart girls

" I have no idea .. but I think he has dated one silver haired girl before .. umm let me think " with a finger on my head I act like I'm in my thoughts ..she gives me all her attention.

" Really ? " Like I said dummy

" Of course not you dummy , I don't keep track of his love life " I push her back and lay down

" Oh common .. this is why don't have the strangers name " like I want it ..

" I don't want his name and that's why he's a stranger , we aren't supposed to talk to them

" But you did...." She drawl , I did didn't I ? .