Red Tape

Liam shut his eyes tightly as if ignoring the sight.

Looking back, there were several moments that shone brightly in his difficult life of being born and raised in humble circumstances and Erwin was always there in those times.

Erwin, whom he met on the first day he saw snow, was his first love.

Liam loved the young master as theologians worship God, as astronomers count the stars and moons in the night sky.

However, his love will cast a dark cloud over the young master and diminish his light.

Wasn’t it a love that had a set end anyway? Was he dreaming of eternity with the young master?

Liam didn’t want to see with his own eyes the moment when his love would destroy the young master.

So when only good memories remained. When he could bury them as memories. When he had not yet lost anything.

Right now was the moment to stop everything.

As a memory of their hearts facing each other and communicating, as a precious memory of having held such a precious person in my arms at least once, I just need to leave everything behind and embrace even half of the happiness.

Without even knowing that Liam was making such a determination, Erwin sighed as if to calm his mind. Then, he wiped the tears that had soaked his cheeks with his palm and tried to smile.

He looked like an opera actor performing an exaggerated performance, repeatedly hitting his cheeks and then suddenly forcing a smile. That kind of emotional turmoil did not suit Erwin, who was always noble, elegant, and consistent.

“Yeah, I know. It was sudden, wasn’t it?”

“…”

“I would feel the same way. If I were you and you were talking about marriage with someone else, I would feel bad too.”

“…”

“You would feel pathetic. I know that too. I understand.”

“…”

Erwin was talking like he was trying to convince someone.

Liam couldn’t stand the pain in his heart because Erwin’s efforts to understand the other person seemed like a plea not to abandon him.

Liam’s hands, which had been loosely placed on his knees, are now tightly gripping the ends of the wooden chair’s arms.

Erwin continued in a very excited voice.

“I’m not indifferent either. But no matter how upset and angry I am, there are things I can and can’t say.”

“…”

So what should I do?

Should I tell him not to get married and instead take up a gun and go to the battlefield?

Or should I tell him to run away right now, holding this lowly thing’s hand? Should I tell him to get his beautiful hands covered in dirt and ashes and live a life of poverty as a fugitive?

“I know exactly how you feel. Don’t say nonsense.”

Liam lowered his head and then he realized.

This would probably be the last time he would talk to the master like this alone.

When Liam, who had gathered his courage, raised his head again after a while, he had completely changed into a different person.

“How does the master know my heart?”

“… What?”

Erwin, who has a somewhat surprised expression, looks at Liam with blank eyes.

“Even I, who am ignorant, can understand, but why don’t you know? Isn’t it stupid to reject a marriage with someone like that? And she is beautiful too?”

“…”

“I’m not just saying that. I think it would be a good idea for you to get married.”

This time, Erwin was silent.

“I… thought the master was amazing. I think it was amazing and cool because it was the first time I saw a noble in my life. I thought we were different beings from each other, starting from the part  that made up our bodies.”

“…”

“But when I actually experienced it, it wasn’t anything special. It was just the same as an average person. Made of flesh and bones.”

“…”

While Liam was talking, Erwin quietly looked at his face. His eyes rolling here and there as he spouted out cruel words, the corner of his lips trembling awkwardly.

“… Was it like that?”

“Yes. It was.”

Meanwhile, when Liam saw Erwin didn’t seem to be believing what he was saying, Liam raised the stakes a bit more.

“It was thrilling to crush, make him cry, and tear the person who would become the official of this country under me.”

“…”

“But I wasn’t the only one who enjoyed it. You whined, shook your waist, and cried under me… You enjoyed it as much as I enjoyed it…·”

Slap, he was slapped for the third time.

Erwin, as if he couldn’t stand it anymore, grabbed Liam’s collar with both hands and dragged him down where he was sitting on the sofa with his head turned away.

Erwin pushed Liam’s shoulders with both hands and knocked him down to the floor. Then he immediately climbed on top of him and ripped open the front of Liam’s pants.

“Who said that? I enjoyed it enough.”

Erwin’s voice cracked. He pulled Liam’s unexcited penis out of the hem of the cloth. Then he roughly massaged it with both hands.

The penis, which had been physically stimulated, inevitably hardened little by little. Liam looked down as if he was perplexed.

“Master. What are you doing?”

“What’s the problem? You seem to want to be a male prostitute, so I’m treating you like that!”

The end of his voice cracked miserably. Erwin’s whole being was being torn apart inside and out.

I wish I hadn’t known. That this kind of happiness existed. I wish I never knew that I could experience this kind of happiness.

Erwin wanted to disappear into a broken bubble.

“I don’t know if you’ve had enough fun, but I haven’t.”

Poisonous words spilled out between his pale lips. The erect penis in Erwin’s hand was straight and large.

Erwin roughly took off his pants and underwear and sat on top of Liam. Then, he placed his glans on the unprepared entrance and, without a moment’s hesitation, he put his weight on it and sat down.

“Master…!”

Liam, who didn’t know how it was going to insert, shouted urgently, but his penis was already deeply embedded in Erwin’s body, tearing open the tight entrance and the flimsy inner wall.

Erwin lowered his head, unable to even breathe.

“Ugh… ”

It was a long time before a thin moan escaped his lips. It was a sound that came out as if his throat was being squeezed hard. However, it sounded more desperate and painful than any scream.

His two trembling hands barely reached up and grabbed Liam’s collar.

“Ugh… ”

“Master. Please stop it.”

“Huh… Shut up.”

Liam’s voice sounded like he was trying to soothe a stubborn child. Erwin gritted his teeth and moved his knees up and down.

The sobbing sound was louder than usual. This was because Erwin was holding back his moans with all his might.

“Master.”

They were clearly connected so deeply that they couldn’t get any deeper, but they were too far apart.

Liam frowned as if in pain. His penis felt like it was about to snap, so how much must Erwin be in pain? As if to prove his thoughts, Erwin’s eyes were bloodshot red as if they were dripping blood.

Liam could easily push him away and throw him off of him. One hand would have been enough.

But Erwin looked too desperate at that moment to do so. Doing so felt like taking away the last thing he had in his hand.

“Ugh”

Erwin let out a suppressed groan. His trembling eyelashes closed and the tears rolled down once more. Even the sight of the tears rolling down his cheeks was painful, like they were scraping his skin.

But he didn’t care and moved as if he was determined to suck the semen out of Liam. However, Erwin’s penis was so painful that it was just flailing helplessly.

Liam just waited silently. He hoped that the young master would get tired first and fall off, so that this sad affair would end quickly. However, Erwin did not stop, and as if trying to induce Liam’s climax, he tightened his lower abdomen and squeezed his back entrance.

It felt like tiny tentacles were wrapping around his penis,squeezing it. Liam could no longer hold it in and started to ejaculate.

“Ah, young master, young master… Haa…  haa…”

He felt a sense of emptiness and self-loathing for having reached a climax in this situation.

Liam covered his eyes with the back of his hand to block his vision. If Erwin was crying in pain right now, he didn’t have the confidence to reach out and hug him.

After some time, the weight that had been sitting on his pelvis disappeared with a wet sound. Soon, there was a rustling sound of clothes being put on. Then came the sound of walking on the carpet.

Erwin went to the door and grabbed the cold doorknob with his hand.

“Yeah. Let’s stop this fucking love game.”

Liam felt a pain as if his heart was being ripped out as he waited for those words. Erwin drove a wedge into Liam’s ear.

“It’s not because I believed you. Your acting was shit.”

“…”

“We’re over… ”

The door opened with a click.

“It’s because you didn’t believe me.”

The door slammed shut. The sound of clicking felt like his world was closing.

After a long time, Liam finally sat up. The area around his eyes, which he had covered with the back of his hand, was soaked with tears.

And the woman in the portrait was still looking at his miserable appearance with a confident smile.