Chapter 365 You'll hate to let go, and I can't bear to see you upset.
Luo Yanran didn't know if this would be of any use, but these were all she could do now, she couldn't return to Xie Xiao's past life, but she also couldn't bear to watch him being constantly troubled by nightmares.
The method wasn't particularly smart, she just hoped it would be effective.
She watched as Xie Xiao's body stiffened, yet he still reached out to embrace her into his arms.
Luo Yanran heard his fierce heartbeat.
It was as though that layer of skin and flesh couldn't contain the restless and anxious heart.
Xie Xiao's body was trembling, unable to control himself, and not wanting to.
As he reached out to hug the girl before him, the figure from his memories completely overlapped with the person in front of him.
Chaotic memories tumbled in his mind.
Yes, he remembered, Luo Yanran was always like this.
The current Ranran was no different from her past life.
Only minus the hidden worries and thoughts.
She was never one to be changed by life, even in her past life, she ended up trapped here for him, studying at a school and major she disliked.
But she was always changing her life.
She appeared indifferent, yet she was clearly striving to live.
It was because of this, even a Xie Xiao who was bent on death was changed by her.
She was always like this, never changing, the one being changed was always Xie Xiao himself.
Before his eyes appeared that girl from his past life, maybe on the way here she would buy herself a bouquet of flowers.
Then, as he opened the door, she would hand it to him along with a milk tea.
But her mouth would only say, "I bought it on the way, do the flowers look nice?"
Xie Xiao's lips slowly curled into a smile, he squeezed out a sentence from his tightly constricted throat, "I love you, can we be together forever?"
Perhaps this sentence was one that he couldn't say in time in his previous life?
Back then, he probably didn't have the confidence to easily express love.
How would he have said it?
Oh, he would probably have said, "If you're willing, still like me, can we give it a try?"
His past self was insecure and sensitive, it was the closest thing he could muster to a confession.
But Luo Yanran would definitely say without any hesitation, "Okay."
"Okay." The voice from his memory came from within his embrace.
Xie Xiao looked down at the person in his arms.
She was smiling, with tears in her eyes, and added another, "Okay. Xie Xiao, let's be together forever."
Xie Xiao pulled a smile on his stiff face, his gaze fixed on Luo Yanran's face, he said softly, "Thank you for loving me."
Whether in the previous life or now, thank you for loving me.
Every time you chose me, it seemed without the slightest hesitation.
Ranran...
Xie Xiao hugged her tightly and closed his eyes.
The person in his arms was very calm, as their heartbeats slowly steadied.
Xie Xiao once again opened his dry eyes.
By now, tears had dried and the view was no longer blurry.
He looked at the river that had frozen over.
At the riverside, the bouquet of red roses Luo Yanran had just set down. Stay updated through My Virtual Library Empire
Looking at it this way, there was still some charm to be seen.
Xie Xiao's eyelashes quivered a few times, and he looked towards the river.
It was unclear, but he knew it wouldn't carry the struggling figure that brought him despair...
His Ranran had returned to his embrace.
The nightmares that had troubled him should now be dissipating.
Without any exceptions, they were deeply in love.
They got married, and in the future, they would have their own children.
Everything was very good now...
Luo Yanran took out a wet wipe to clean Xie Xiao's face and then wiped her own.
Her makeup was always light, so even after she wiped off most of it, it didn't seem out of place.
Looking at Xie Xiao's reddened eye rims, Luo Yanran said softly, "You look like a little bunny, so cute."
Xie Xiao's thoughts were still immersed in that lingering sadness, but he had gotten much better.
At her words, he raised an eyebrow, leaned in close to her cheek, and kissed it, "If I am the big bunny, then you are the little bunny."
Luo Yanran wrinkled her little nose, looking somewhat unconvinced, and pouted, "That's not true, let's go..."
She took his hand and started walking forward, but they couldn't help turning their heads to take one more look at the riverside.
It was as if they were making eye contact with the girl from another time through the ages.
Luo Yanran's gaze lingered on the empty space, bidding farewell to her other self from a different moment in time.
Xie Xiao looked at that bunch of red roses, thinking that he wanted to give her a bouquet too.
Maybe he should buy two, but it didn't matter, Ranran's would also represent his, right?
He shook his head and looked at the person beside him, thinking what was he worried about; the person he loved had always been there.
Luo Yanran brought Xie Xiao into that school.
Xie Xiao took her all around the school.
Although it seemed he was also there for the first time.
But in his dreams, he had accompanied her time and again.
Year after year.
Every place was very familiar.
Because of the Spring Festival holiday, many areas in the school were closed.
Xie Xiao took her to the edge of the sports field and found a stone bench to sit. He then suddenly laughed and said, "Right here, during your freshman year's physical education exam, 800 meters, you twisted your foot. You sat here to rest..."
Back then, the number of boys who had a crush on her was not small, and the helpless Xie Xiao watched as she shook her head, declining those boys' kindness, and slowly made her way to the infirmary with her roommates' assistance.
A dorm mate asked with some concern, "Luoluo, should we go to the hospital?"
But Luo Yanran shook her head, said childishly and softly, "I don't like hospitals, it'll be okay in a couple of days."
"But you'll have trouble walking like this..."
The Luo Yanran who had trouble walking still left the house with her backpack on after receiving a tentative message from Xie Xiao asking if she was very busy.
She was so thin, walking must have been painful. Her dorm mates asked her what was wrong and told her not to use her foot if it was nothing serious.
Her eyes were bright as she said, "There's something very important, I'm going to meet someone very important..."
Xie Xiao remembered being at home, hearing the doorbell, and when he opened the door, he saw her foot wrapped up like a rice dumpling, and in her hand was some snacks from the back gate of the school, "I'm here, I brought you the tasty takoyaki you liked from that place we talked about..."
Xie Xiao, looking at the person beside him now, saw her holding his hand, intently listening before she softly said, "Is that takoyaki really that delicious?"
Xie Xiao smiled and nodded, "It's delicious, let's go see if they are open."
Luo Yanran smiled happily and nodded, "Okay."
After a while, Luo Yanran said softly, "Husband, I'm somewhat envious of myself for being able to be by your side for so long."
After saying this, she felt it wasn't quite right and shook her head, "But I don't want it that way, I hope you are always healthy, and I will still be by your side. We still have a whole lifetime ahead of us!"
Having said this, she looked at Xie Xiao seriously and carefully, "Right?"
She was uncertain, probing.
She knew the memories of her past life were too deep for Xie Xiao.
Not just for Xie Xiao, even hearing it all herself felt painful.
She was afraid that Xie Xiao would become caught in what once was.
But Xie Xiao lifted her hand to his mouth and kissed it, "Yes, we still have a lifetime, Ranran, I'm okay now, let's take it slow."
Memory won't fade, but I think I need to try to make peace with myself.
After all, you loved me so much.
You wouldn't bear it, and I can't bear to see you sad.